im racist against my own ethnicity

Asian-American... I'm not Asian, and I'm not American; so, I must be the hyphen in-between. In another sense, I am both an immigrant and an American. Some would think that I shouldn't think so much about it and just be glad to be here, but I'll never be able to amalgamate the pros and cons into a reason of how or why. I'm not Asian enough to understand why my parents chose to come here, or what a foreigner must think of America, and I'm also not American enough to take being American for granted.

Ethnocentrism is just a fancy way of implying that someone doesn't know any better. America stands for something worthwhile; I hardly see Americans as an adequate portraiture. What's the point of being great, if you don't know why you possess greatness?

There are two kinds of immigrants: those whose visas and family well-being are contingent on their performance as a student in the U.S., and the other kind-- like my parents. I don't know what it mean's to be the "model minority." I just remember my parents taking the lowest paying jobs and never complaining about it. It doesn't seem like such a land of opportunity when you don't speak the language nor do you understand the culture. They made me take piano lessons, they made me play the violin, and they gave me homework in addition to my real homework. Perhaps it was for my opportunities that the came to America. The validity in that statement is nearly inconceivable...overwhelmingly inconceivable.